You don’t have to wear what people wear, act like other people act, think like other people think, because being yourself is crazy, weird and scary enough.
Penat siott.. s-3 hari ni bekerja kerass.. hehehehe.. bekerja keras kat opis, balik umah bekerja keras tengok CD My Lovely Kim Sam Soon.. wakakakaka.. best gak layan..
Petikan kata-kata Captain Jang from My Lovely Kim Sam Soon :
The reason why women did not meet good guys!!
1) Good men are ugly looking
2) Cute guys have lousy personality
3) Cute guys with good personalities are married
4) Cute guys with good personalities and single are poor
5) Cute, good personalities, singles & rich guys are not interested in us (so very true)
6) Cute, good personalities, single, rich & interested in us, those guys are players
7) Cute, good character, single, rich, interested in us and not players are gays
So, to all who think that he's good looking or cute, with good personalities, single, rich and not a player nor gay.. why don't you prove that you're not from the above categories by messaging me.. hahahahaha.. Adios.. wanna go to sleep
Hallamak!! I can't believe what I did this morning..!! I think I may have raised my voice a few octave higher than usual to 'Akak' (mind you he's a guy!!) in the office in front of Pini's boss and everybody else in the office that time.
Ini yang aku risau ni bila aku dah hangin satu badan, aku dah tak kira dah ko senior ker (macam time aku part one dulu gaduh ngan senior part 5), section head ker.. wakakakaka.. aku musti hilang kewarasan sekejap pas tu apa lagi diorang kena fire la seround ngan haku.. hai.. Apa yang aku risau dah jadi kenyataan dah pun.. duku risau sangat aku hilang kewarasan dan memarahi boss aku.. this round aku hilang kewarasan sekejap dan fire boss orang.. adeh!! Itu la provoke aku sangat.. aku ni memang la nampak ceria sokmo tapi hanya certain2 orang yang tau aku ni memang cepat naik hangin. Teringat lak Mimi kata aku ni sesuai keja Maybank sebab garang macam mak rimau.. wakakakaka..
ya la.. dah bukan keja aku tetiba lak ko nak taruk taik, nak taici kat aku lak.. dah la aku bukan dalam group initiative ko pun.. ko kena taici ngan bos2 ko, ko nak taici aku lak.. siap suruh aku pi discuss ngan big boss lak pasal keja ko, apa de hal?? Dah ler benda2 tu aku tak tau sangat.. apa yang ko nak pun aku tak tau.. ko nak suruh aku lak berbincang ngan big boss pasal benda yang aku tak tau dan obviously bukan keja aku.. aku apa lagi blasah jer la.. orang lain aku tak tau, ko nak taici diorang, suka ati ko la.. jangan carik pasal ngan aku cukup..
nak mintak aku tolong.. boleh.. aku tak kisah.. tapi aku akan kisah kalau ko semua nak taruk atas kapla aku.. champion initiatip ko tu bukan buat apa pun?? suruh jer la derang pegi bincang ngan boss.. alih2 nanti orang lain penat2 buat keja sampai nak pecah kapla.. bos2 yang dok goyang kaki kat dlm bilik tu lak sedap2 dapat nama..
Petang tadi Amira ada hantaq kat aku satu email yang menyebab aku geram sesangat sampai meleleh air mata aku.. Dia bagi gambaq sorang pompuan cina (aku assume cina sebab ada tulisan cina.. kalau salah sori noo).. pompuan ni pegang anak kucing yang comeii sangat macam Chikonet.. lepas tu dia letak anak kucing tu atas jalan, dia pijak perut anak kucing tu dengan high heels dia yang tajam tu, pas tu lagi dia letak heels kasut dalam mulut anak kucing tu, dia pijak lagi, dia pijak biji anak mata kucing sampai tekeluaq kot mata yang sebelah lagi, dia pijak2 kepala anak kucing tu sampai bersepai otak anak kucing tu.. Muka tak dak langsung rasa bersalah atau berperikemanusiaan. Sebab kucing tu binatang, ingat nyawa dia tak bernilai ker?? Walau berapa tak suka pun aku dengan babi tapi aku takkna bunuh menatang haram tu secara suka2 macam tu..
Aku tengah sedih ni.. teringat anak kucing yang comeii tu jadi mangsa pompuan yang gila b**i.. memang laknat betoii la.. Aku tak paham pasai apa la ada orang yang macam tu dalama dunia tu.. yang bab makan tu aku boleh terima lagi.. tapi ni tak dak pasai apa pun.. yang pi bunuh kucing tu sampai macam tu skali.. apa salah anak kucing tu???!! Bodoh!! Bangang!! Geramnyaaaa!!!!!
Aku ni sebenarnyer BZ terbabas..nak pegi toilet pun tak sempat.. tapi biasak la.. aku ngulau gak sekali sekala..
Aku tukar lagi lagu blog aku nih.. kali ni aku tukar ke lagu Edward Chun - Our Love Will Always Last (Instrumental) kalau nak.. korang bleh la nyanyi karaoke style.. tu dia punya lirik kat bawah tu. Lagu ni macam sedap lak bila aku dengaq lama-lama walaupun sedikit lembab.. Lagu ni dalam citer Save the Last Dance for Me.
Well.. Finally!!! Something's wrong with Blogger.. I can make changes but I cannot viewmy blog and so does everyone else... apparently,I'm not the only one having this kind of problem.. glad that it's okay now..
I've changed the music for my blog!! Previously, it was a japanese song titled "Mirae - (Future)". Ini pun Japanese song gak tapi aku amik yang piano version jer. Lagu "First Love" oleh Utada Hikaru.. one of Japanese Top Pop Singer.. Enjoy..!!
Just to share with you guys.. inilah lagu yang aku tengah sronot dengaq skang ni.. Lagu oleh Southern All Stars Ai to Yokubou no Hibi (Lonely Women). Soundtrack untuk citer Ooku (Women's Palace). Southern All Stars ni memang otai la.. Lagu derang ni best-best gak macam lagu Tsunami.. etc.. anyway.. enjoy!!
Tired and sleepy. It's already 2.18 am and i just got back home. Biasakla kuar makan - makan ngan Hanil, Wawa and Apeng. Last Thursday was Apeng's birthday and we went out and celebrated his birthday lah ni kira-kiranya. We went to Kajang for some satay and then to Mid Valley for a game of bowling and ended with Nasi Lemak at Kampung Baru.
Had to treasure our outing with Apeng since I don't think he'll be going out with us after he got married this coming June. I don't think I need to explain why.. most of you knows about it already. Like Wawa said just now, to be with somebody that you lov, sometimes you need to make some sacrifice which Hanil said said Apeng's willing to sacrifice us, his friends just to be with her. Whatever..
*** Currently listening to "Ai to Yokubou no Hibi" by Southern All Stars, the theme song for "Ooku". Suka lagu dia.. teringat lagu Gaban lak.. ^_^
What's with this week?? My Xs called.. yup 2 of the them.. apa mimpi ntah mamat yang sorang tu call aku. Dah buang tebiat kot.. yang sorang lagi tu tak der la slalu tapi kadang-kadang tu ada gak tenggelam timbul. Tapi yang sorang ni makes me wondered, what does he up to?? Calling me after all these time.. Let's just say that I'm not very keen in hearing his voice and I really, really wish that he would never called me ever again..
Hehehehe.. makes you wonder eh.. what exactly happened between the two of us? Nobody really knows that he exist in my life and I certainly will not entertained you guys about all the juicy stories about me and him, just enough to say that I really regretted to ever knowing him and would never forget what he has done though I forgive him for causing me pain. Hahahaha.. hampess betul.. mintak-mintak la dia dah tak call aku.. suspender betul la mamat tu.
I received an e-mail and I found it to be interesting and so very true
People call me "Tree".
I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.
I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.
She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together.. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes. Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?
During graduation, I read a SMS in my mobile. It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Leaf..
People call me Leaf..
During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.
I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.
At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.
Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay..
Wind..
People call me Wind..
Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note.
The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.
It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away.."
"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me.
Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...
In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself.
There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go..
Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss?
This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.
There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world. It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our lives.
A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.
The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever..
It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone . .
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